Saturday, October 25, 2003
Missed a blog yesterday. Went out to watch Infernal Affairs 2 in the afternoon and then hang out at Holland V with samuel and alvin. Sat and talk at Coffee Club till 11pm. The mud pie and cheese cake was nice ^^.
Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing them."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they're away, you wonder if they're cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart. Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don't have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning.
Author Unknown
Since a young age, I've planned on finding the true love of my life. Someone I'll hold on and cherish. Treasure for the rest of my life. Many romantic ideas and thoughts of being together and enjoying times spent together. That was back when I was 12 years old. Perhaps it's an immatured and naive ambition. Maybe sparked off from all the TV serials or movies that I watched. Fairy tales where the knight rescues the damsel in distress and thereafter live happily for eternity.
Dreams are dashed. Reality sets in. My mindset has gradually changed. The world is a critic. Love has laid a set of standards. They would tell you that you got to know someone first in order to love. Love is about commitment and sacrifice. Success is tagged to relationship. Failure to comply results in falling out of love. You cannot love someone that doesn't love you or it'll end up in vain. The music artiste today sing about love and lust as if they were the same. A fine line is drawn between infatuation and love. Then again, they take sides and stand on their own ideals. No longer can I like someone just the way I like her.
Love is my experience, no matter what they say. I still love you all. Love doesn't change.
Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing them."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they're away, you wonder if they're cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart. Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don't have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning.
Author Unknown
Since a young age, I've planned on finding the true love of my life. Someone I'll hold on and cherish. Treasure for the rest of my life. Many romantic ideas and thoughts of being together and enjoying times spent together. That was back when I was 12 years old. Perhaps it's an immatured and naive ambition. Maybe sparked off from all the TV serials or movies that I watched. Fairy tales where the knight rescues the damsel in distress and thereafter live happily for eternity.
Dreams are dashed. Reality sets in. My mindset has gradually changed. The world is a critic. Love has laid a set of standards. They would tell you that you got to know someone first in order to love. Love is about commitment and sacrifice. Success is tagged to relationship. Failure to comply results in falling out of love. You cannot love someone that doesn't love you or it'll end up in vain. The music artiste today sing about love and lust as if they were the same. A fine line is drawn between infatuation and love. Then again, they take sides and stand on their own ideals. No longer can I like someone just the way I like her.
Love is my experience, no matter what they say. I still love you all. Love doesn't change.
Thursday, October 23, 2003
What do girls look out in guys? haha that was what I asked shufen meiqi and liujun on monday. Today was a catchup to the discussion then.
I shot quite a lot of questions on looks, character, status, etc.
Guys should use facials. haha I found this rather amusing. Cleansing foam is a must while other products such as facial scurbs are a bonus. Guys should be neat. Seems to be a plus plus point here to score well on impression. Haha.. that would mean to have neatly trimmed hair and sideburns and a clean look. Outfit also important. Colour got to be matching, skin colour be taken into account.
As for character-wise, guys at 18 year old should be matured. No throwing wet tissue paper around and less retarded behaviour. Well, I guess I fail in this haha...
Actually, I don't remember much haha... prolly should jot it down on paper to take note. Wonder if there's a scale from 1 - 10, how much would I score? *opened to bangs*
I shot quite a lot of questions on looks, character, status, etc.
Guys should use facials. haha I found this rather amusing. Cleansing foam is a must while other products such as facial scurbs are a bonus. Guys should be neat. Seems to be a plus plus point here to score well on impression. Haha.. that would mean to have neatly trimmed hair and sideburns and a clean look. Outfit also important. Colour got to be matching, skin colour be taken into account.
As for character-wise, guys at 18 year old should be matured. No throwing wet tissue paper around and less retarded behaviour. Well, I guess I fail in this haha...
Actually, I don't remember much haha... prolly should jot it down on paper to take note. Wonder if there's a scale from 1 - 10, how much would I score? *opened to bangs*
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Spent half a day waiting. The next half tried to bake myself... failure.
Why didn't I become black? The sun seemed perfect today... was warm and inviting. Some strangers took us on soccer but we were already dead of exhaustion. Could feel my throat drying up and my saliva turning foamy. Played volleyball too, but at half the vigour and enthusiasm we start off with. 2 people standing on each side of the court attempting desperately to keep the ball in the air.
Overall, didn't meet up to expectation. Perhaps 4 people isn't enough to really kick up a din. Maybe we went there to late to be effectively roasted. Always thought that the beach is full of life and fun, well yes but it's ultimately the people that will cause the commotion.
One question did hit me while on the blue line service heading towards the beach. Wingfat and eric tried to perk things up a bit by suggesting to me that shuwen proposed to robert. I accepted it without much doubt. Not really without much doubt but I knew they could just be joking around or perhaps they wanted to say something else relating to it. They said I was naive to believe such a fallacy. And I thought well yeah what they said is true to a certain extent that I'm quite simple-minded but at the same time I'm not innocent cause I do know what's going on. Turned out that shuwen just asked robert for the picture she took with him.
Just reflecting in the earlier paragraph, I realized that I could have said something that I didn't really mean it in that way. Hmm.. do I take matters to lightly and without much hesitation, such that it becomes a nonchalant attitude? And something did made me ponder even more was the fact that "I accepted it". What do I mean here? I don't even know hahaha... not that I am sore about it. What stand do I choose to take? a trusting and straightforward manner.. well maybe with a little twist here and there - makes life a little more interesting.
Where's my tan? Did it darken my spirit? haha no of course not. I'm glad that we did have an outing to the beach today, and I really treasure the company of my friends. crap becoming too mushy again hahaha
Why didn't I become black? The sun seemed perfect today... was warm and inviting. Some strangers took us on soccer but we were already dead of exhaustion. Could feel my throat drying up and my saliva turning foamy. Played volleyball too, but at half the vigour and enthusiasm we start off with. 2 people standing on each side of the court attempting desperately to keep the ball in the air.
Overall, didn't meet up to expectation. Perhaps 4 people isn't enough to really kick up a din. Maybe we went there to late to be effectively roasted. Always thought that the beach is full of life and fun, well yes but it's ultimately the people that will cause the commotion.
One question did hit me while on the blue line service heading towards the beach. Wingfat and eric tried to perk things up a bit by suggesting to me that shuwen proposed to robert. I accepted it without much doubt. Not really without much doubt but I knew they could just be joking around or perhaps they wanted to say something else relating to it. They said I was naive to believe such a fallacy. And I thought well yeah what they said is true to a certain extent that I'm quite simple-minded but at the same time I'm not innocent cause I do know what's going on. Turned out that shuwen just asked robert for the picture she took with him.
Just reflecting in the earlier paragraph, I realized that I could have said something that I didn't really mean it in that way. Hmm.. do I take matters to lightly and without much hesitation, such that it becomes a nonchalant attitude? And something did made me ponder even more was the fact that "I accepted it". What do I mean here? I don't even know hahaha... not that I am sore about it. What stand do I choose to take? a trusting and straightforward manner.. well maybe with a little twist here and there - makes life a little more interesting.
Where's my tan? Did it darken my spirit? haha no of course not. I'm glad that we did have an outing to the beach today, and I really treasure the company of my friends. crap becoming too mushy again hahaha
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Woke up early fully refreshed and ready for the physics practical. God answered my prayer last night. Well, I always pray for strength the next morning and BEHOLD! I'm full of energy every fresh start of the day hahaha... Thank God for a father that always prepares breakfast for me way early in the morning... i mean like how rare is that? I always argue with my father and find myself in bad terms with him most of the time but it doesn't stop him from making a hearty meal which gives me the best start to my day.
Reached school on the dot for Physics Practical 1st Shift. I'm the last candidate from the 1st shift.. is that supposed to be good or bad? anyway, practical when smoothly ahead and thank god once again my readings were quite accurate and I was able to draw fitting lines for my graphs. Never had I gotten a better result in my whole 2 years in JC lol.
Quarantined for 3 hours later!! To expend time, we played chinese chess and then later I suggested Dungeons and Dragons haha, me being the Dungeon Master. But alas, time was too short for the quest to be completed and without the guide book, kinda lame.
While being dismissed from quarantine, my lightning sensing reflexes and ultra high frequency radar detected shuwen as she avoids the likes of me again.. am I that terrifying? The thought that the sight of me is revoking makes me want to laugh! WOoo HOoo.. I'm one freaky scary terrorist! made her turn back into the room even when all were free to leave.. that's kind of a bad scenario depicted..
Stormed orchard with jason chin, matthew, timothy, weimeng and cewei?!? Ate at BK, then walked around looking for nice berms/pants/shorts to wear coz all mine ain't fitting any more. Ce Wei is getting onz these days... he's even going to sentosa with us tmr! CooL KiA leh... scared he out-do me!
Hmm notice a different tone today? Full of excitement as we'll be heading down to Sentosa tomorrow. Gonna get a tan finally ^^.. then going to play myself mad before I mug till death for the A's...
Anyway today is truly a day to give thanks to the Lord whose blessing flows in an endless stream. I'll praise and exalt His Name in songs with my voice and my guitar!
'With praise and thanksgiving they sang to the Lord: "He is good; his love to Israel endures forever." And all the people gave a great shout of praise to the Lord, because the foundation of the house of the Lord was laid.' - Ezra 3:11
"Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. " - Psalm 100:4
Reached school on the dot for Physics Practical 1st Shift. I'm the last candidate from the 1st shift.. is that supposed to be good or bad? anyway, practical when smoothly ahead and thank god once again my readings were quite accurate and I was able to draw fitting lines for my graphs. Never had I gotten a better result in my whole 2 years in JC lol.
Quarantined for 3 hours later!! To expend time, we played chinese chess and then later I suggested Dungeons and Dragons haha, me being the Dungeon Master. But alas, time was too short for the quest to be completed and without the guide book, kinda lame.
While being dismissed from quarantine, my lightning sensing reflexes and ultra high frequency radar detected shuwen as she avoids the likes of me again.. am I that terrifying? The thought that the sight of me is revoking makes me want to laugh! WOoo HOoo.. I'm one freaky scary terrorist! made her turn back into the room even when all were free to leave.. that's kind of a bad scenario depicted..
Stormed orchard with jason chin, matthew, timothy, weimeng and cewei?!? Ate at BK, then walked around looking for nice berms/pants/shorts to wear coz all mine ain't fitting any more. Ce Wei is getting onz these days... he's even going to sentosa with us tmr! CooL KiA leh... scared he out-do me!
Hmm notice a different tone today? Full of excitement as we'll be heading down to Sentosa tomorrow. Gonna get a tan finally ^^.. then going to play myself mad before I mug till death for the A's...
Anyway today is truly a day to give thanks to the Lord whose blessing flows in an endless stream. I'll praise and exalt His Name in songs with my voice and my guitar!
'With praise and thanksgiving they sang to the Lord: "He is good; his love to Israel endures forever." And all the people gave a great shout of praise to the Lord, because the foundation of the house of the Lord was laid.' - Ezra 3:11
"Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. " - Psalm 100:4
Monday, October 20, 2003
Fatigue set in even before the week starts. Gym was extremely tiring today. Right from the start, could feel my muscles giving way. No ache, just extreme worn out. The slave master was no exception haha, both of us were struggling. Glad that we're having a break tomorrow.
When to eat @ dover with js after that, shouldn't have eaten too much... that second plate of chicken rice after the wanton noodle made me bloated and the afternoon heat just made me feel like dozing off..
4 people turned up for econs remedial so it was cancelled haha... left for Chin's place for tuition. I was so exhausted I fell asleep on 196 in quite an awkward position. When I woke up momentarily could see some new town people laughing at me but my eye lids just when shut again, back to slumberland.
Reached Chin's house, zzzzzzzzzz........... just lie down on the floor sleep again wahaha. when i woke up, got rose syrup to drink ^^. Chin's wife is really nice, she offered us boiled sweet potato and biscuit to eat and even chiong coffee for us looking how tired we were.
Bought new calculator, pen, soft eraser, mechanical pencil, ruler, etc. all geared up for tomorrow's A's Physics Practical. Better pray that all goes well and won't screw up tomorrow like forgetting to bring entry proof, forgetting to leave the handphone with the examiner, keying in wrong values in the calculator, blah blah blah... be optimistic. :P
When to eat @ dover with js after that, shouldn't have eaten too much... that second plate of chicken rice after the wanton noodle made me bloated and the afternoon heat just made me feel like dozing off..
4 people turned up for econs remedial so it was cancelled haha... left for Chin's place for tuition. I was so exhausted I fell asleep on 196 in quite an awkward position. When I woke up momentarily could see some new town people laughing at me but my eye lids just when shut again, back to slumberland.
Reached Chin's house, zzzzzzzzzz........... just lie down on the floor sleep again wahaha. when i woke up, got rose syrup to drink ^^. Chin's wife is really nice, she offered us boiled sweet potato and biscuit to eat and even chiong coffee for us looking how tired we were.
Bought new calculator, pen, soft eraser, mechanical pencil, ruler, etc. all geared up for tomorrow's A's Physics Practical. Better pray that all goes well and won't screw up tomorrow like forgetting to bring entry proof, forgetting to leave the handphone with the examiner, keying in wrong values in the calculator, blah blah blah... be optimistic. :P
Sunday, October 19, 2003
Purposeful Life; Meaningful Being; Significant Presence; Reasons to exist.
How do we view life? Is it a God-forsaken realm where only war, violence and hatred exist? Does the cruelty and harshness of reality and the fight for survival, an elitist world where only the best triumph, poverty stricken and a place where the evil intentions of Man run lose and justice isn't upheld disgust the likes of you? Or have you become desensitized and detached from the world?
Genesis records not just nature that God created, but the nature God is. All he created, He saw it was good, mentioned 6 times throught Genesis 1. There was order, varieties, creativity, lushness of beauty. All was made for the purpose He had for us. To lead a meaningful relationship with God and enjoy His goodness. We are to reflect His glory and represent His rule in the world with the authority He granted for us to govern over all His creations. Have we this purpose in our lives?
Many a time, we sink into the sorrows and depressions of this temporary life, that we do not see the eternal plan God has laid before us. Look at the bigger picture. Do we ever tell ourselves we are tired of living? Do we doubt our future? Do we give up on ourselves or blame the world for the bitterness we face? The world today has phased out our own reason of existence. We should never forget our origin, less we become objects to society, to work, age and die, without knowing there is more to life. Don't harden our hearts!
How can we experience the blessings and joy that God has prepared for us? Be thankful for the privilege to be man (Psalm 8). Be worshipful (Psalm 148). Through rejoicing and pulling through the pains and turmoils, being a representation of God's glory.
"If God is the creator of the universe, would we not be able to say there is no problem that our God could not handle? Yet often in times, we choose to handle ourselves because we don't really know who our Creator God is and as a result we don't know how to ask him for help"
Don't seek self-righteousness; reflect upon God's countenance and may His grace and mercy flow through you. This is a joy that cannot be kept to myself, so I shall openly declare it to those who seek a life more than mortality, that all may experience the fullness of life that God created.
People ask me why I'm always happy. Is it mere appearance? I couldn't answer, but I have found an answer.
How do we view life? Is it a God-forsaken realm where only war, violence and hatred exist? Does the cruelty and harshness of reality and the fight for survival, an elitist world where only the best triumph, poverty stricken and a place where the evil intentions of Man run lose and justice isn't upheld disgust the likes of you? Or have you become desensitized and detached from the world?
Genesis records not just nature that God created, but the nature God is. All he created, He saw it was good, mentioned 6 times throught Genesis 1. There was order, varieties, creativity, lushness of beauty. All was made for the purpose He had for us. To lead a meaningful relationship with God and enjoy His goodness. We are to reflect His glory and represent His rule in the world with the authority He granted for us to govern over all His creations. Have we this purpose in our lives?
Many a time, we sink into the sorrows and depressions of this temporary life, that we do not see the eternal plan God has laid before us. Look at the bigger picture. Do we ever tell ourselves we are tired of living? Do we doubt our future? Do we give up on ourselves or blame the world for the bitterness we face? The world today has phased out our own reason of existence. We should never forget our origin, less we become objects to society, to work, age and die, without knowing there is more to life. Don't harden our hearts!
How can we experience the blessings and joy that God has prepared for us? Be thankful for the privilege to be man (Psalm 8). Be worshipful (Psalm 148). Through rejoicing and pulling through the pains and turmoils, being a representation of God's glory.
"If God is the creator of the universe, would we not be able to say there is no problem that our God could not handle? Yet often in times, we choose to handle ourselves because we don't really know who our Creator God is and as a result we don't know how to ask him for help"
Don't seek self-righteousness; reflect upon God's countenance and may His grace and mercy flow through you. This is a joy that cannot be kept to myself, so I shall openly declare it to those who seek a life more than mortality, that all may experience the fullness of life that God created.
People ask me why I'm always happy. Is it mere appearance? I couldn't answer, but I have found an answer.
haha gotta laugh at carlos cudicini because he is SO pj! Whole life lobang the ball through his legs... so retardly farnie it deserves a place in my serious blog. More Info
